This past Sunday, the pain in my knee finally rendered me couchridden. I stayed all day sitting down, cringing when I was forced to walk small distances or up stairs. Yesterday I spent the entire day in my living room alone watching TV while Jared was at IHOP. The only time I finally got up was when I was sure that madness would ensue if I didn’t get out of the house, so Jared and I went to Publix. 

I wasted two full days already this WEEK that I did not even give one moment of myself to God. Worse, my husband called me and warned me not to let my day be wasted entirely on TV. “Redeem the time”, I recall him saying. Yeeeaaahhhh, I even consciously chose not to redeem the time.

I’ve been sick before, I’ve been bedridden and miserable before, and I’ve allowed for those to be adequate excuses to withdraw from everything but TV, but I’ve never been so jealous for my heart afterwards. THIS, in itself, is victory.

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